i'm blue.

feeling blue again. i think i haven't been myself lately. i've always behaved differently around different people. is that alright? when i'm with my ang moh friends, i try to speak more eloquently. with my chinese friends i try to use simplier engrish. so. i'm not being myself and when i come home, i feel uncomfortable. i dunno. or maybe. it's not this. something else is bothering me...

so many things. usually when i immerse myself in schoolwork, i don't feel so much for these things...whatever they are...but i haven't been working since last night. yes. was out last night and tonight. so no work done. so maybe that is it. i am guilty.

i just feel blue.