religion disclaimer

[hm. i'm a little emo these days]

i know there are skeptics out there who are judgemental of christians when they blog about god and stuff, are there? well, i kinda am one of those skeptics. cos well, there are just some so called christians who don't seem to be on the right track, but anyway, it's not for me to judge.

well so, i'll be talking about christ pretty often in my blog. 

and before you judge me, here's my stand:

i am but a lost girl in this big world.
i am seeking christ pretty much because of the christians that have left honorable impressions on me. they are happy and friendly, and seem to be able to cope with life, despite the setbacks. they are giving and never selfish, and it's just so pleasant to be around them. and i wanna be like them. i wanna spread peace and love to people. because the world is just so full of anger and misunderstanding and disruption. i don't like that, do you? it disheartens me. such things only lead to nasty feelings inside. a bit of it is normal to keep the balance, but i think it's getting too much.

christianity is a big part of my life. it's the reason i live. [or try to live]
life isn't worth living otherwise.
i just want to live my life well.
i know i am not perfect.
i am still growing, and this is when others judge us the most.
christians are not perfect. please don't prejudge us.

and i'm not gonna be like an over-zealous christian who asks everyone to go to church. nope. i can't help others if i haven't helped myself. so i'll just work on myself. like, if you were a baby learning to walk, you can't help another baby to walk. so yeah. consider me a baby. although, i've been a baby too long. it is rather embarassing, discouraging and scary - cos the bible also censures me about it! argh. but i have my issues to deal with.

it's not easy to transit from 20 years of ordeal, and change into a butterfly overnight. there's a lot of work to do. and it gets harder the older you get. it is so much harder to unlearn bad habits, forget bad memories, hurts, scars. (i've experienced the world. it's all about temporal pleasures, but permanent wounds.) i don't wanna wait till it's like too late. like i'm an old lady, and then i decide to 'follow christ'. what a waste of a lifetime.

yes, quite so true. i think the bible promises us much greatness, overcome-ness, if we follow christ. and so i want to tap into those promises. how to? read the bible i guess. talk about the bible. listen to people talk about the bible. ah. i get it now.