11 posts tagged “love above all”
these are so great!
i look awesome.
courtesy of daniel chan!
got my com fixed up today, yay.
got my LAA photos at UCC uploaded.
not as many photos as i thought...sigh.
i wish i had taken more pictures.
nevertheless, the best five days of my life hitherto.
day 1 - wed, 25 jul
day 2 - thur, 26 jul
day 3 - fri, 27 jul
day 4 - sat, 28 jul
day 5 - sun, 29 jul
please don't steal my pictures, thanks.
the musical was a blast!
i'm so happy and still tired.
my computer crashed so i'm on bro's com.
can't bring in the photos just yet...
so later!
okay today i feel much better. much more relaxed.
i did procrastinate a lot, but i finally managed to pack my suitcase for the weekend at the theatre.
packed bathing stuff, make up stuff, grooming stuff and my costumes & my shoes! hope i don't forget anything.
had to do some last minute tweaking of my costumes today too, and mom's gonna help me work on them tomorrow.
snappy update: i've fixed up his new tank. it's huge! lots of gravel to scuttle around in and a huge pool to soak in. i took a video but i don't have time to edit it and show it to you yet. but he loves it there. i inverted a small paper tray and it looks exactly like a dog house with a little entrance and that is where he usually is. that's snappy's little home! :) every time i try to sneak up to him, he scatters back into his hideaway. but ants have been infesting his tank and stealing his food. ugh.
i listened to pink floyd today. it's pretty bizarre stuff but quite relaxing after you get used to it. i hope it's not satanic or anything. and i'm checking out the silly wizard of oz conspiracy on youtube. it's quite funny.
so sleepy today.
had rehersal.
was dreaming during 'who are you' and forgot my cue. i was kinda thinking about what happened this morning with dad. mom calls it "gek sum" in cantonese, which kinda means worrying.
listened to legally blonde the musical whilst travelling. there are two really long tracks - 8min and 9min! find it a bit long for tracks, but i don't mind cos it's like a long scene i guess. overall, find it quite enjoyable, though laura bell bundy's voice is kinda shrill sometimes. there's even a song called bend and snap hehe. paulette doesn't sound as dumb as the great jennifer coolidge though. anyway i loved the movie so of course i love the musical! yay me! after listening to the musical i'm really craving to watch the movies again! ohhh!
here's the myspace page with some song samples.
oh and i learnt a new phrase. "chip on my shoulder". it means: a habitually hostile or combative attitude. hmm.
i feel lousy.
my dancing shoes somehow gave me lotsa friction today, and some parts of my feet hurt. oh i know why. cos we practiced within the actual measurements of the stage, which is much larger, and i had to automatically take bigger steps, and thus much more friction burns. damm. this is not going to work. thankfully i found out early.
i'm feeling jaded today.
now.
since post-concert at xin's.
all the anticipation for the concert.
and now it's done and gone.
that's life.
what now?
what next?
ah today i was a bit divarish at rehersal. there was an incident and i reacted in a very nasty way. yeah it just made everyone affected feel rather unpleasant. like i mentioned, i like to jeopordise situations. cos all was going quite well. too well...
as for my gig today. how was i? i was trying too hard. i guess it's natural for me to strive and push hard. to emulate my favourite singers. but i think i might be injuring my throat in the process. maybe i shouldn't sing like that anymore. i can imagine if i ever get a real vocal instructor, how many mistakes she would point out and how many mistakes i must unlearn. i think whenever i choose ambitious songs, i push so hard and it actually makes my throat shrink and get constricted. i need to try to sign naturally and lightly. i don't know the technique yet, and that's why i'm using my throat to sing. it's really bad. i know. i stink. i'm just quite a good impersonator.
at least i made it through today. it was a really long day. thankfully i'm bleeding much less.
today's practice didn't go so well.
felt the sting again.
i realise i can't take (constructive) criticism very well. i take it as people finding fault with me.
i guess i have pride.
director was like "you all are not putting enough energy into it!" and i felt i did put in lots of energy, and i'm just getting hit because some of the others did not put in their effort. but i don't want to point fingers. i hope we are all trying our best, cos i sure darn am. i think i'll just have to try to keep improving myself. maybe i'm blind to some of my flaws. i know i can look sloppy because of my size and my figure.
but something i can't figure is how to keep a big toothy smile on my face for like the 5 minutes. my default setting is very plainly muted, unsmiling. i find it really hard to keep smiling. i feel like i'm forcing myself to smile. it doesn't come naturally.
sigh. there's a lot of pressure on us cos this piece is the opening act to the musical. and if we mess up, it will give the audience a bad impression of the show to follow.
please pray that we can get this sorted out. that we will all put in our best effort. that we will try to come on time. that we will not be distracted. that we will pay attention when the director is speaking and giving instructions and comments. that our director won't be angry!! lol.
1. woke up with a sore throat. sigh! maybe singing too much? or very likely the jalapenos in the subway salad i had yesterday. prolly the peanut cookies i had for dessert, and not enough water intake.
2. rushed down for practice. had an almost full run this time! we did the first half of the show, before the interval. i was appointed for a new part - i have to come out again in one scene and i have one line to say and i was so nervous about it! my first time acting! arghh! stage fright! i have to tease jim about him falling in love with betty. "jim elliot! you of all people. i bet you didn't think it would come to this. but the bugs bitten! you're in love!" *sniggers and leaves the scene* i hope i don't crash and burn!!
3. i went down to geylang to visit my old church just now. it took me quite some courage to go down, you know. with all the history. but it wasn't that bad. that person wasn't around, thank goodness.
4. throat still kinda sore. sigh.
today's practice was much better.
our director didn't scold us.
and i was praised while doing a scene! "good, melissa!"
haha. cheap thrill.
but it was, you know. added confirmation that i can perform.
i joined this production to experience what it would be like to be in a show.
so far i learnt that you have to be really bold and not shy to do the actions even though at first we may feel very stupid doing them. at the beginning i was kinda shy about the poses i had to do. and i was kinda depressed at that period, so i didn't connect with my cast members and didn't really enjoy the practices. but now i'm in average shape and i'm more chatty with the rest of the cast so it helps with the chemistry. but we do end up laughing a lot, since we're all noobs at acting. like in one scene we have to act like we're gossiping with each other and we don't know what to say and we try to make up stuff and it's funny so we laugh. hope we don't laugh in the real show!
so in conclusion i am enjoying the experience. i'm only a small cast member so i can't conclude if i can and should do this professionally. i mean. i always wonder how actors can remember all those lines! i think i'll be horrible at memorizing lines! that's one of my fears.
oh! i also learnt a few theatre jargons, like downstage, stage, upstage, the scrim, leg 1, leg 2, leg 3. fun!
today's practice went past like a breeze! i was pretty engaged in it and was able to get along well with the rest of the cast and had lotsa laughs too. i almost didn't want to leave! imagine. from 8pm to 930pm, that's one and a half hours. i didn't notice the time went by so fast! i had a blast today, as i did last saturday. things are settling in great since i came out of depression the other day. i hope it doesn't go away.
and i need to memorize my lyrics!!
